Beginnings

I don't like myself very much. Well, I'm upset with myself a lot. I care too much about what other people think of me. I'm trying to correct this but I haven't been very successful as of yet. I try to live my life as honestly as possible. People who don't confuse me. I don't understand why people feel the need to lie, especially about people. I've been the victim of many lies. I don't get it. I'm very reserved, tend to be shy. Somehow I keep trusting the wrong people. I'm naive, sad but true. I desperately try to hide this fact. I display a tough exterior, but it's a facade. People sometimes mistake me for being a snob or being upset, or bored. I am bored a lot. I'm tired of my life. I'm tired of being tired. I hate that people have taken things from me and try and make me feel bad about myself. This is just the beginning...